Getting Better

 Hello

I hope this finds you and yours all well. Sorry I haven’t posted for so very long. It’s been so difficult to post when all I could do was whine and complain about my health but I am doing a bit better now.

Most people go thru treatment and suffer all the side affects of the radiation and chemo at the same time. Of course I’m one of the odd balls who didn’t suffer much of anything until after it was all over with.

Until a few weeks ago I was really sick. My hair was falling out, I couldn’t walk without a walker, Jim had to help me with everything and I do mean everything. Two weeks ago I got a couple of units of blood for anemia and suddenly things started to turn around a tiny bit every day. Hair stopped falling out but I had lots to spare so it’s not really noticeable although I am sure only the dark hairs fell out because I‘m way more salt then pepper now :) . My legs got stronger and I am doing well without the walker. Jim and I do our best to care for one another. I’ve been doing all the cooking although Jim is still doing the clean up. I am doing the laundry but Jim still needs to carry the baskets for me. I still have a very LONG, long ways to go but at last I feel like I’m healing and I am getting a little stronger each day. I am positive the cancer is gone, I just need to survive the cure and praise the Lord I’m sure I finally am.

At the moment my biggest problem is a dreadful cough. I’m told the radiation caused a sore on my lung. As a result I am coughing up a lot of mucus as it tries to heal. Coughing and lack of sleep is exhausting. Also quite odd is I’ve developed a sweet tooth and have been eating like they are going to ban food (especially sweets and fruits) at any moment but I can’t seem to put on an ounce. I have five doctor appointments in the next three weeks so maybe someone will be able to explain what is going on.

Jim fell and hurt his back, broke a vertebrae, plus he has osteoporosis and arthritis. No cure, just pain meds and he just had to suffer until it improved on it‘s own. Poor guy it’s been such a slow recovery, still has a ways to go but he really is doing well now.

Thank you to anyone who has donated blood.  Over the years I tried to donate but have always been turned away because they said my BP was to low.  I've had four units in the last two months and believe me I feel as though they have brought me back from the brink each time.  My heart is full of gratitude and love to those who donated it. 

Thank you to those of you who have continued to send me cards. I love each and everyone and it seems they always arrive when I need a lift most.   Thank You also for the e-mails and comments I’ll never be about to tell you how much they are appreciated.

Take care, be well.

Love, Hugs & Blessings

Bernie